New Year's Eve

This photo makes me calm....

I've stayed home the last two years because I just didn't want to deal with crowds, idiots and $$$. This year I'm going out...even with a little cold. Great timing huh?

I'm unsure what the new year will bring but I'm intending to go forward towards my dreams. There will be curve balls and walls aplenty. My days will be a mixed bag of good, bad and indifferent...more good than anything though.

I wish the best to anyone reading this blog.

Here is hoping that 2012 is one amazing year!

B

Weekend of Bliss

I'm not really sure how else to put it. The weekend held more happiness for me than I've allowed myself in years. In fact...I actually cried tears of..Joy? I don't think I've ever done that. EVER. Really.

Why so blissful? Simple really.

I opened up my heart finally and great things happened.

Our family Christmas dinner was lovely. I made a point to be there early to help my sister since it's allot of work for one person. We blazed through the to-do list while catching up. The vibe was so positive and happy...in fact everyone one caught that vibe who walked in. We have had tense holidays dinners more so than not but this year was great. I made a point to talk to everyone and listen to what was happening in their lives.

I drove home with a happy heart, belly..and a sugar coma from hell. Sunday I managed a small workout and then headed to my friend Alicia's house. That girl.....so wonderful and giving. She gifted me with something beyond my wildest expectations. I felt the need to pay it forward somehow. That night I dug out that last of my "Holiday homeless gifts" aka a sweatshirt/pants and gloves..all new. I gifted a gentlemen on the corner who looked like he was chilled to the bone. The smile he gave me was the best gift of all.

Upon arriving at home, I discovered I had won a massage online:)

Monday I headed to San Antonio to see my dad and attend a Choir reunion I organized. I'll be honest, I was pretty nervous about going . There were a few folks I invited who aren't my biggest fans or is that all in my mind? Who knows...

What I do know is that...90% of people invited came. We had a fabulous time reminiscing over choir days, shenanigans and current days. People I had not seen in nearly 20 years came inclusing my choir teacher. Everyone thanked me for setting it up and my heart was so full that it felt like it might burst. Doing this for everyone brought me joy!

Then, I checked my Facebook. Holy Crap..I won a gift from Endless Beauty. Pretty awesome!

Some really cool things going on right now. More to come because I'm creating it.

B

Holy Moly

My beautiful friend scored me this amazing dress for FREE. It looks 10X more amazing on and runs about 375$. I'm floored and feel very fortunate. Thank you A:) I'm working to secure a clothing designer to dress me for a couple SXSW interviews as well. They will get great international advertising.

Know anyone? Let me know.

It's been a crazy week of meetings, calls, meetings, auditions, shoots..EVERY ONE of them went great. We escaped the rain by 5 minutes last night! I'm lining up interviews, working on bands, BTV is booked out til April 2012, I'm networking and connecting with amazing people. This is THE most exciting my life has ever been.

I'm thankful, learning to be more gracious and giving back when I can.

It's gonna be a fun weekend too.

Shopping madness with Georgia tomorrow, Saturday family time and Holiday dinner, Sunday quality time with friends and more. Big smiles!

Babs

Goals and Karaoke

What a combo:)

Had a blasty last night with my BTV team. It was Brian's birthday, his GF rented out a room at a Highball with massive amount of booze, food and a n amazing cake from Sugar Mommas. It was FUN! I was pretty good eating wise...didn't drink anything and had 5 bites of cake. LOOK PEOPLE, ya don't lean down during the holidays unless you're strict! We were all having a great time singing karaoke when I discovered a band I can't sing. Not to toot my horn but I can sing many things well....JOURNEY ain't one of them. Nope,not even a little.

Started off the day at Texfit crossfit; 1 out of the box class followed by some crossfit. Funny..even with two classes it didn't feel like enough for me.

That brings me wacky ass to 2012 Goals...

(I hate the word resolutions. Goals just works better for me mentally.)

1-Travel outside the US again....

2-Get to 12-13% BF and maintain for photo ops/modeling gigs.

3-Find a way to bring in an extra 500$ a month...minimum.

4-Cut out all artificial sweeteners.

5-Be kinder to myself and meditate often.

6-Land a big speaking role in a film or commercial!

Those are some goals off the top of my head. Some may contradict one another but that's me, a walking contradiction. My main goal is to get out more and enjoy each day to the fullest!

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That Easy?

Learning so much in Leading Change Mastery. SO much! We really do control all that we get. Laws of attraction are real. We can create anything we desire. Sound hokey? Yeah...I would have scoffed at this a couple years ago.

Try it...perhaps your mind will change. I'm vocalizing things that I want for my life and they are happening. Granted there is also crap to muck through but.....it's less. I'm asking for more. I'm not where I desire to be right now.

***I desire a real job in the music industry. Booking or managing or organizing...something. It WILL happen. I'm telling the Universe(and you) that I desire this! I also came across this....

OMG...I want that. I would LOVE this. I need an ensemble....make it so.

Beyond that..workouts happen, diet is working and I'm finding that striving for the "perfect" body isn't so important. A fit mind and body;that's where it's at. There are way more important things than being lean. Time to be more people focused and less self centered.

Goal achieved in 2011:

1-Got passport and traveled to Europe. (Life Goal)

2-95lb Hang Clean and 10 Deadhang pull ups

3-Sing on BTV..

4-Become a better leader...

5-do more internal work(Leading change Mastery)

My goal for 2012 coming soon.

B

Meditation

It's something I've been working on since Leading Change Mastery started. We have to meditate 5x a week and it's NOT easy. Wait..it's easy to do but not easy to make myself do. The thing is, it REALLY helps me calm the F down.

Through my meditations I'm able to focus better and deal with stressful situations. Weird. Ha! Guess this shit really does work.

The class is going well but I can never go back to a comfortable level of ignorance. Once that door has been opened you must go through it. I have much more responsibility to myself and those who know me now. I know this sounds all wonkysillycrazy. It's kinda like Landmark Forum, so I have been told. Regardless of what anyone thinks, I feel changed forever.

It has me making plans for my future...


I want to find a way to make some income in the music industry. I LOVE BalconyTV but have accepted that it will always be non-profit. Through this amazing show I have learned about the industry, learned how to book bands, made contacts, net worked my arse off, talking my way into festivals and then delivered well beyond what I thought we would.

Through this experience one thing is clear as a bell, I Love MUSIC. IT'S MY DESTINY TO BE INVOLVED WITH MUSIC IN SOME WAY FOREVER. It makes me happy and fulfilled. I sing loudly in my apt, car and office everyday. EVERYDAY. I recently got to sing with a great band which ignited a desire to perform again.

So how can I do it? I'm not sure. I'll keep banging on every door that comes my way until one opens. One will ya know? IT just takes perseverance and talent, luckily I have both. :D

Jump and the net shall appear...

B

Moustache Showdown

Holy Moly..what a beat down. The weather was low 50's, wimdy and RAINY! I sincerely hate cold and wet. Well...my ass was doing lunges in large pools of water. It doesn't matter because Atomic Athlete gave us a hardcore workout.

6 stations..4 min for max raps at each.

1-Bear Crawl to sit-ups. So so wet and gross.ACK!
2-KB Swings with 2 suicide sprints
3-Sandbag Get ups...TOUGH as a mother.





4-Burpee line jumps..kicked ass with 45.
5-OH carry of 25lb plate with walking lunges
6-Curtis P's. Basicallu Squat clean, two lunges and a push press equalls one rep. I bonked on these.

The workour ended with a 4 miler which I passed on. Running in slick weather isn't my fav and my knee was tweaked.

That night I got pretty sick from playing out in the rain. I cancelled my brunch thinking it was goig to be worse. WRONG...Woke up feeling great. Brunch back on. It was a smaller group which worked out great. 13 people from 28. TNT was crowded and has changed so much since the last time. 2 hour sitting limit per table? I mean really? Blah! They won't get my business again.

We hit up Kung Fu after brunch. In fact that is where I'll be partying it up for NY EVE:)...arcade games, SKEE BALL...fun. If only I could find a karaoke NY place...that would be my choice! After brunch my ride and I went to Whole foods where I get everything and ate it too. Diet back on!


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Debut Song

Another great band out of Austin, TX..The Solider Thread debuting their new song.."Would it kill you".

We had The Solider Thread and Stukenberg on the show Wed. Damn that was allot of good music!



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Sing Gig

Hey folks....


I was invited to sing with a band I really dig. Stukenberg. You can check their stuff out at Stukenbergsucks.com.It was a bit chilly out but so much fun. I forgot how much I enjoy performing.

Hint...it makes me happy.



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