Tuesday, June 20, 2006

Bag Lady


Think I am going to look into a back up job...

NO, I'm not quitting and don't think I'm being fired, my company CC is being ordered:). I just worry that I might not be the person they need me to be. Saying that just breaks my heart but it's been in the back of my mind since day 1.

I've never done real admin work like drawing up corporate letters, scheduling meetings and coordinating destination for meetings. Yes, I'm a fast learner....But is it enough? Is this job right for me? I say this stuff aloud because the possible answers scare me. I don't want to give up my new salary or wonderful benefits......

unfortunately, my new boss just doesn't seem to be happy about anything. He certainly doesn't want to spend much time training me....Which sucks as training prevents future fuck-ups.

I will give this my all and try my best....but what if it's simply not good enough? I've never been a real failure at a job....Sucks.

I might wind up a Bag Lady.....


Trojan

16 comments:

Pittchick said...

Everyone usually feels that way at the beginning of a new job. You can't expect everything to run smoothly from the get-go.
Maybe you can schedule a meeting with your boss and tell him your concerns, ask him his opinion of the situation and try to come up with a way that the two of you can work together.

mini driver wannabe said...

You ARE good enough. New jobs are hard. New bosses are hard. I agree with DNA. Communication usually helps.

Trojan said...

Well, I guess it's difficult since I've done the same thing for 6 years..and knew it so well.

But my boss expects me to just know things even after talking to him about NEEDING training.

However another issue that is rearing it's ugly head is the mind reading expectations and ability to make magic occur at will. I can't create a better plane seat if the upgrade doesn't work.

Like i said ...I am NOT giving up but I am stessing out in a major way and it sucks. Thank you both for being so supportive though...I appreciate it. Seriously!

Professor Fate said...

New jobs are tough. New jobs are scary. New jobs when they don't want to spend time training are double tough and double scary. Has anyone said that you aren't doing an acceptable job? Did you just have a bad day? I don't think that you should worry. It has been my experience that only the competent worry. Those truly over their heads don't know it.

Just go have a great Wednesday!!

If you are bound and determined to worry, then keep reading.

I am sure your resume is still in order (you just got this job).
You have skills you can pick up another job soon.
There are plenty of "bridge" jobs out there (stuff to do until you find the next great job).
If the worst of the worst happens, you'll be entitled to unemployment benefits. I know it sucks to have to rely on the government, but you've been paying in so you are entitled to collect.

You should still go and have great Wednesday.

Recon said...

The benefit to having little training in your field though, is that the boss can mold you to whatever he wants you to be. Bosses like that. I would much prefer having someone learn exactly how I want them to than have to re-teach them out of the wrong things they learned elsewhere.

When you do finally learn to read his mind (and you will because all managers eventually do) you'll be the apple of his eye and won't be able to do any wrong.

Take this as a learning experience and just go with it. It's not likely that he will fire you for incompetence when he hasn't shown you what to do in the first place. And if he does, you're smart, you're tough and skilled and can find another job quickly.

Buzz said...

Check out what Cinders has to say on her blog dated 20 June.

Might give you some insight and perspective.

http://skindee.blogspot.com/

It's not always your fault, most times it's your supervisors fault. Gentle, subtle communication with some unwavering focus toward the task at hand will help you, I believe.

Take care,

-buzz

Kate Michele said...

I'm with DNA on talking with your boss about your concerns. Is there any one else there that could help train you another admin girl or something?

You can do it I know you can!! Its stressful to learn so much so fast, especially when everyone else knows what their doing and doesn't think to train you!!

But I got more from your post that your worried it isn't so much IF you can do it, becuase you can ....But more of IF its your personality and where you as a person fit with the job....Is that what you were sayin??

BRAE said...

You just have a grumpy boss, the other admin left for a reason. Going forward just remember that your boss is not ever going to be happy and jsut do your best. Some people are just like that and there is nothing you can do about it. But don't let it get to you that much. From what I know about you, you are doing a great job no matter what mood your boss is in. Give it a good year and then see where you are at. At least you will have that on your resume and you could find the same job but with a better boss.

Smut Mutt said...

If you're new it's expected that you don't know everything. But what'll turn people off is when they have to explain how to do something over and over, particularly simple tasks. Write the procedures down if needed.

Use spell and grammar checking if needed (note to self). If what you're working on is in the critical path, work your butt off to complete it; and then find the next critical task and dive in.

All Head, No Shaft said...

I am a lurker, and live vicariously through the blogs I read. Feel special I read yours daily, along with the 32 others.

Hey, I work at night and am bored most of the time, but have procrastinated inregards to starting my own life alteringly eye-opening blog.

Anyway....

First of all, every boss (unless he is an egotistical prick) wants people working with him who have a mind of their own and a set of cojones. I have met you on several occasions and feel pretty confident in saying that you have cojones. Talk to the man, like the others have said, be honest. Ask what you need to learn, ask about taking courses in what you don't know. Ask to see what others before you have done so you can learn from their successes or failures. You will let him down once or twice, that will be apparent. What will not be apparent is that you will be what he is looking for. This is, of course, if you take initiative, listen, ask questions, and ask more questions. No one likes a know-it-all, and no one knows it all. With the exception of me, but that will be proven in my blog.

I am against asking the others in the office who are in the same position, are over you, or under you, office coworkers are a vile bunch, and are usually looking for a bare spot in your back. I know this is pessimistic, but I have worked in an office long enough. You may get lucky and disprove what I have just said.

Go out there, do your best, be your best, look him in the eye and tell him what is on your mind.

Rafael said...

Is there another admin that you can talk to for guidance with stuff?

babyG said...

stop whining ! and Drink !

Trojan said...

You guys are so awesome...Smutt and Allhead..had no idea you two were bloggers:). thanks for stopping in for little ole me...

Everyone...it means allot that you took the time to make me feel better...Today was allot better and I am staring to understand my boss. He just panics when overloaded...we all do...

I won't give up and I am a fast learner....I will give it a year for sure.

:)

Kate Michele said...

Atta Gal!!

Spotty said...

Troj...you know All Head, No shaft is not the same as All Shaft No Head...right? I wonder which is better.....They're both way cool hashers though!

You can do it, baby!

All Head, No Shaft said...

There is only 1 All Head, No Shaft! Which means there is no question which is better!
Wet Spot, get off the blog and back to working on the pool.