Two men walk into my life....for very different reasons.
One has been interested in talking on the phone and I've just been putting it off for whatever reason. Depression or just lack of want or caring...But today I picked up the phone and called. It's such a simple thing really, picking up a phone and calling someone..Or so you think. Why would I put it off for weeks? Not sure.
I was delighted to discover that this guy is very sweet,athletic and shares many of my interests. That being said, we will be going out later this week and I'm a little jazzed about it. I honestly have not been interested or jazzed about anyone in months...7 to be exact. I'm picky and it takes allot for me to really like someone, which means I endure long lapses of being lonely and sometimes depression. Why sugar coat it?...I am human after all. Aren't you?
The other man was brought into my life in a rather peculiar way, an ad for personal training. It was one of those days where I was having body dissatisfaction and distress....I honestly have those more than I should. We exchanged emails and I was a bit standoffish as you really have no clue who the person is on the other end of the email and what they are truly about. Personal training is a very PERSONAL experience and there are MANY assholes who think they own the universe and know it all. Fuck them.....I know stuff too. It' s hard to find a REAL knowledgeable and dedicated individuals who enjoy helping out others and are not in it for the Benjamin's alone. Enter my new trainer....J. We sat and talked about life and the real pursuit of happiness. You see....Personal happiness goes way beyond being healthy and having a nice figure for me. I've been through some really ugly shit in my life and it's molded me into who I am today...Some good and some really ugly. He picked up on that and honestly talked to me.....In depth and it was nice. I guess you can say that he is on the "level"
Long story short, I met two vastly different souls who made an impact on me today and it couldn't of come at a better time. I've been such a recluse lately...Just stressed with a new job and unhappy about other things. Perhaps this will help to pull me out of my funk and back into happier days. I hope so.....If I watch one more fucking TLC or Style networks show...I'm going postal.